so i’ve made up my mind, and I’m moving out of my boyfriends house.. I feel like we jumped into everything way to fast. I don’t plan on breaking up with him, I just can’t take his controlling behaviors anymore. I’m not allowed to see my parents when he’s gone, I’m not allowed to see my friends while he’s gone and I’m not allowed to have a job if its more than 3 days a week. Deep down he’s a good guy and I freaking love him but I’m not a child and he treats me like a child. He’s being really negative about the entire situation saying its not going to work we’re not going to make he doesn’t want to do it like this. Well I don’t wanna live with you anymore so its like this or we’re over….

theres a lot more things that are bothering me but theres no reason to put it all out online.. I just wish he was still the man I fell in love with

really annoyed right now, all i ask of my boyfriend is  to keep his clothes in one area, NOT to smoke cigarettes in the house and put the dishes in the sink.
I’ll do the rest,
~ the laundry
~ actually cleaning the dishes
~ disinfecting the bathrooms & the kitchen
~ sweep & mop the floor
~ keep the porch organized 
~ keep the bedroom nice & neat

not too much to ask right?
well apparently it is, I asked my boyfriend NOT to smoke in the house even when I was still smoking.. because I don’t want my shit or our house to smell like cigarettes. I told him I wasn’t going to be so nice about it after I quit. Well I quit for the new year and he’s still smoking in the house….I just found eight cigarette butts in out bathroom! WHAT THE FUCK…thats just from today in our bathroom! I’ve taken 3 naps today because I’m literally over his bullshit and about to move home, EVERYTIME I’ve woken up today he’s been smoking a cigarette.. I went to the store TWICE for him today and both times when I came back he was smoking in the house and every meal I made for him today when I wasn’t paying attention he was lighting a cigarette..

if that shits not enough, he’s been smoking that fake weed shit… its getting ridiculous he goes through about 3-5 bags a day.. that shits not cheap. He’s the one constantly complaining about money. thats at least $36 a day! I’m seriously so over his in consideration. 

Ugh I feel like I have no life,
I’ve been looking for a job since we moved here but their not hiring ANYWHERE :/
I start school in May but thats four months away…
I really need to make some friends up here or I’m literally going to go crazyyyyyyy
Facebook/Tumber/Pinterest is NOT a life lol



I mean I guess its not so bad since I got a pup and he’s only 3 months old so he need all my attention. & I’m a little depressed because my boyfriend works in north dakota 3 weeks outta the month, but he comes home on Wednesday…finally.. 
We have our first vet visit for pup to keep his shots going and get him micro chipped! on the 3rd & I have a doctors appointment for test results on the 6th… oh and I’m getting my glasses AND a new pole on the 10th ;) so at least its picking up!
I need to pick up some more hobbies because I know after I get back my stamina on the pole I’ll be bored as fuck again..